My Dear, Momochan (28 April 2025)

May 17, 2025

My Dear, Momochan (28 April 2025)

My Dear Sweet Baby Girl,

Ohh baby girl...sweetie

Fluffy Marble Cake Kitty~

Ohh Dear~.....

How should I begin to write this...*still grieving. :(

I'm still shaking and still grieving over her sudden passed.

It's been days since the day she left the world. (Or should I say Pet heaven?)

Took me days (maybe forever) to letting this go because Momo was too precious for our little Chiu Family.

Still remember how I noticed your poor respond to me when me and hubby was heading for work.

I remembered your sunken eyes, full of watery eye discharges where I have to repeatedly wipe with tissue slowly not to hurt your vision.

It felt so traumatic when the day has come...Still I remembered vividly, how you left us...peacefully.

Back in the past, it all started in the month of February 2025, your body started to deteriorate, weight went way down rapidly.

The first thing I've noticed is your body weight went down, no appetite and the continuous of watery diarrhea.

I decided to bring you to the vet, worried that you are not well again. But obviously you are not well already. The doctor had suggested to do CT scan and blood test, but the result was fine.

With the medication, the only thing is to find out why you diarrhea daily?

The doctor provided you with some pills and probiotic powder allow your poop become harden.

But, for the past few days, you unable to keep the pills properly fed. You vomit immediately after we fed you probiotics and even wet food. Although I noticed you enjoyed drinking chicken/tuna broth instead of the meat. So, I bough them in bulk just for you and Yeon (Si Oyen).

But then, I noticed something even worst.

Your body shape has become sooooo small, unhealthy and skinny just like anorexia nervosa. I can even touch the back bone of yours and petting your body slowly to calm you down.

You purred whenever we pet your flurry fur. Your facial expression was distressful and unhappy, the sign of stress and anxiety continues on.

One of the other night, my sister witnessed your loud purring alone in the cage. We give you clean cloth and wrap a small blanket around you before bed time.

My sister thought you are going soon. But turns out you are awaked the next day. (Thank God).

And then, I noticed the injuries on your paw legs. You had some blood stain and you can't stand the pain and managed to bought some pet bandage for your legs.

Some days later, both of your legs finally show signs of recovery but I remember an incident where I accidentally wrap the bandage tightly on one of your paws and it went swollen badly. I'm sorry baby. :(

It went better after I unwrapped the bandage and let your paws off freely even stain with your poop/pee.

One of the days your poop was watery, more like diarrhea and I noticed you rarely pee.

Your eyes sunken slowly and the eye discharged is getting heavier every single day.

I wiped off every night before bed and to make sure you are at your comfort zone.

Things get serious in March 2025 when you body is still remain skinnier and body weight declined to 1 kg.

We went to another session of vet appointment and :

Doctor suspected Momo has IBD (Inflammatory Bowel Disease) or intestine cancer.

Doctor give 2 suggestions:

1) to do MRI scan at the tummy area, do surgery for biopsy test (cut small tissue and bring to lap for examination) to check the result.

2) Steroids supplement will be given to manage a range of conditions such as Inflammation, Immune System Overactivity. To give the cat's gut (gastrointestinal tract) balance.

What we need to do:

➡️feed steroid, probiotic fluid and nerve supplement and monitor Momo.

Next Saturday 19 April 2025 follow up with doctor.

Before we go for the next vet appointment, my mom stopped us from the visits. It's killing you if you need to do the biopsy test because you were already super skinny. Unhealthier state that you might unable to survived the surgery.

Parents made the final decision to let you live along...

Even I have to let you live freely and I want you to enjoy the moment until the time has come.

I began to google on my phone, looking for answers and trying to figure out what signs symbolise your current unhealthy state.

And then...I felt something unpleasant to see.

Your appetite, your sunken eyes, your daily diarrhea, your unresponsive to us, your decrease of alertness, your decline in grooming...

Is a bad sign.

Everyday I see you, you have become a small unhealthy, unhappy cat.

You were grumpy and depressed.

Your "meow meow" was only 1 time and not even daily but one of the days we thought you're back to normal but unfortunately and sadly. No...

On 27 April 2025 (Sunday), I make my decision to clean you up because you were so filthy with poop smell. I let you lying down in a flat size basin with warm water and a little bits of cat shampoo allowing you to breath in clean body.

I noticed you were unable to respond properly and I held you gently, scrubbed your body slowly. You were looking at me while I do all the cleaning then...you went grumpy while drying your fluffy fur. You hate us wiping of your body with dry towel so I allow you to do so...

And then I noticed you're grooming again but slowly. I then decided to place you outside the gate allowing you to enjoy the view under hot weather but in 10 minutes you felt the heat and I immediately take you in back.

Then I fed you with wet food, force you with the syringe but you stopped at 3rd round. I then fed you some water to avoid you from dehydrate and you lick whenever I fed you. But still not much and less pee.

On 28 April 2025 (Monday)

The signs of what I noticed is something I can't find until....

I went down to get my shoes and noticed your body lying lifelessly on the cloth, hearing your slow breath. I moved your head a bit to let you to noticed me but your eyes stay open widely, pupils larger than I thought and your mouth is like smiling.

I took your photo and inform in the Family group:

"Momo cannot respond properly". 7.53am - message sent from office.

.....

And then....The time is here:

"I think Momo want to go already...." 9.38am - from Mel.

I head a notification and read the message.

Few seconds later, mom sent video of your current state.

You were lying in the cage lifelessly and then...:

" Is she Breathing?." - 9.40am - from Dad.

Another video of your unresponsive state.

" Not breathing already...." - 9.42am - from Mel.

I grip my phone tightly, repeatedly looking at the message "Not breathing already..."

....:(

Yeon was seeing grieving at your lifeless body outside from the cage.

He was quiet during the scene.

He meowed at you when he noticed you are already left us peacefully.

He was traumatised of your sudden disappearance.

My dad immediately on the way back from office to look for a back hoe to dig the soil, 2-3 metre deep.

Mom clean and wrap her lifeless body with clean cloth and put her "momo pillow" and teddy bear around her stiffness arm, as if she is holding the teddy bear sleeping peacefully.

While me?

I suddenly cried while on duty. I was at my desk, shaking and crying silently.

I wiped my tears and rushed to the toilet and continue to grieve.

Is the worst feeling ever.

Loosing someone you love is not what we want in life.

Loosing a pet cat? WHY?

I can't answer about this because this is what we made of right?

We must learnt to accept that when the time is come, it will come.

Momo is a wonderful heart-warming, playful and loving house cat.

She was born healthy until she had an accident which lead to a disable state.

We cared for her since the day we take her in as a house cat (when the accident happen).

Momochan has the privilege to grow up together with our small family and she is lucky we had her in our entire life.